Rain (spoken word) –

I woke up to summer
With a cold autumn breeze
chasing after you
and collecting leaves.

Like a five year old boy,
terrified of clowns,
you couldn’t wait to break me down.

I allowed you to drown me,
in all your pain.
Hoping that would keep your anger away.
Placed on a pedestal,
I held on tight.
Praying for the day,
you would grant me
the life
I should have known,
should have lived.
All you had to do was give.

Give up your lovers
and give me the light.
The light that use to shine so bright
Upon this house,
you decorated with picture perfect lies.
Upon this fire
is the place I would hang drawings and stockings,
You never seemed to be amazed-
By the grace I gave you everyday.
But now I left you walking
in the cold pouring rain.

Bones (an iffy spoken word) –

Some nights
I really hate sleeping alone.
Between the insecurities and pointless anxieties,
Having another body there eases it all.
However,
Sleeping alone means no unwanted boys
Are trying to jump my bones.

Breath –

I have been swallowed by past anxieties-
But now they’re throwing me up whole.
Breathing has never felt better.
Trusting someone has never been easier.